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As SY said, i also HATE TO NAME MY POST TITLE. ==

n I CANT UPLOAD MY PHOTOS ! wth blogger!

Last week was a small gathering with my best friends. As usual we had fun, watch movie, snowflake-ing, talk as loud as we can etc etc. I cherish every moment we spent and life is so much fun with you people during high school.

Oh ya, and thanks to you people for the belated bday present! Love them so much, seriously! Didn't have time to say thank you cz I'd been so busy all this while. That was my best time ever lately.

My life doesn't seem to be as good as to be seen. Life sucks! Nothing came good to me. I became so weak that my tears will just drop beyond my control. I keep everything to myself to not let others to see my weakness.

It's hard to find a good friend in Uni. I hate my groupmates for not giving full commitment to work they did. "Copy & Paste = Workdone". For me it's a RUBBISH! In the end, I'm the one doing all the work. Thanks to them!

There's an event, National Counselling Conference on Wednesday and Thursday held in my Uni. Contributed my time as a student helper there. It was a very fruitful event for me cz I learnt a lot of things for free. I was told that the fees per person is RM400. *jaw drops* On the 2nd day, I was too tired during the morning speech. So I learnt the highest level of meditation : Sleep in a standing posture.

It was a fake smile. My whole day was ruined right before lunch. I was TOTALLY pissed by the thing that happened. I was busy with my duty for this event. But suddenly I ran to my class that I skipped to settle on something. I saw selfishness, faking actions, stupid innocent expressions and this is the first time I feel like wanna call her BITCH right in front of her face. I was kinda 'boiled' and yelled to my friend to shut up since he was trying to add oil to the fire though I know he was just making fun of it. Then, I did not say much and walked away.

I thought I have changed. Yet I'm still with my old emotion, easy to get angry. I learnt not to trust someone easily, start thinking for myself instead of others, keep a clear distance next time and who is my friend ; who is the devil. You may win your work, but you will lose your friends. We are different, I choose to lose in my work.

Went home emo-ly. Online a while and straight die on my bed helplessly.

Still wondering, WHY DO I HAVE SUCKS COURSEMATE? I THOUGHT UNI LIFE SHOULD BE FUN? Bullshit!