NEW BLOG SKIN

Yup, as you can see, my blog skin has changed, like finally after years. I was testing the layout for history blog, ended up mine like totally ran off the allignments. So here it goes now. Haha. Yup the previous was like shit, i admit it. So i dont even give a damn to even update it. xD but this was a bit..........to sweet girly, so not my style! LOL. Still it's better than the previous one so for the meantime i'll just stick with this first until I have time to reedit again. I'm so sucks in blogging, just bear with it. xD

Time past real fast. Many things come and go rapidly. Last week was the Singapore Trip with the classmates. Every semester we have a trip. At first our semester trip was to Port Dickson, but after some revolt, we joined the Sem3 to Singapore. Indeed, it's a good decision. XD

First time going overseas trip with friends, a little excited and adventurous. (Before going was totally not in the mood, probably like so many things to do). So we departed on last Friday and came back on Sunday.
We didn't really visited a lot of places, because the first day was like a disaster. Wait wait wait for this and that, wasted a lot of time. And the trip to National Science Centre on the second day took like half a day and we just hang around Orchard Road at night.

at the National Science Centre

Back to KL, i spent the first day of off campus week (monday) on my bed. Yeah i was sleeping whole day. Bacically I can sleep whenever and wherever. HAHA. I broke my record of waking up at 4.30pm. BRAVO! *applause*

And the next day, tuesday. WeiJan told us that she's leaving on Thursday morning. Hell fast! Damn. So the last minute supper gathering plan was brought up by...... SY? I think so.. haha.. And YES! Everyone made it!. We girls dont really that girlish kind of ppl, that's y we can hang around for years without getting bored and bother anybody else. Wherever we go, the atmosphere will be surrounded by noise, no matter in high class restaurants or in a mall or something. Haha. Till we meet again next year, I'm so happy and excited for you!

And yeah! We can selca EVERYWHERE ! XDD

They say Friday the 13th is a black day, but indeed mine was great. xD
13September is a day to remember. I hope we could build our memories together. :))

I'm not like you people out there, born with golden key in the mouth.

I'd been washing my face with tears recently. I feel that I'm so fragile now that even a small matter could easily poke through me and leave a hole for some time for it to cure.
I'm not as tough, as brave, as wise and as 'whatever' as I thought.
I'M SO SICK OF MYSELF. WHO WOULD OTHER PPL NOT SICK OF ME!

I do admit we have some happy times together. But I still feel insecure deep down. Maybe because I know you too well?

Trying my best to not give a damn. But words are always easier than action.
I believe someday I'll found someone who really appreciate my everything.

pls dont piss me off again !

Low batt?? Yeah right. -,-

我认真怀疑我吞了炸弹

这个少爷还真难服侍。

为什么不能好来好去?

A day

It's a manner to say tht you like it when ppl give you something although you are not so.. After all it's the heart that counts right? lol C:

Complexity

I don't say because I don't want to make everyone sophisticated. But now you are making me sophisticated. Then I thought you said love is a lie?

I'm fucking not feeling great now.
Too much things to say but no one to spill to.
Many things happened at once, i'm feeling stupid for having low EQ.
I almost cry just now by just a simple stupid thg.
I tried my very best to ignore anything.
I want to stay away, far away.

Would you willing to be my listener?

We lasted the conversation for quite some time, until that name came out. Am I too sensitive or what? I wonder if you ever feel the lil' depression behind every 'haha'?

I want the old me. The one who doesn't give a fuck on anything.

I feel so restricted to post on my own blog.

UBAH ! UBAH ! UBAH !

That's the common hot shout out that we'd been heard for the past few weeks.
First of all to stress, below are just my opinion and thoughts. If any conditions that we have different thoughts or feeling, ignore it and move on.

GE13, lots of dramas that we'd seen, on the social media. So far I did not share any because I personally do not 100% believe on the 'rumors' therefore doesn't want to make things worse. Bangla, blackout, chinese tsunami bla bla bla.

Well the bangla thing we really saw through photos that they really appeared at the election place. Fake I/C photos on fb, but i would want to say that these could be photoshop. Again, I'm NOT on any sides. I support those who can bring positive development to our country. Maybe IF Lim G.E is the PR head, I would fully support PR. Because what he contributed for Penang, we can all SEE and that's a very healthy society. No matter who is from which side, if what he did is correct, I think the others leader should implement them as well, take away the egoism. Indelible ink was bullshit.

And then the Janji Pakatan Rakyat, to free this and free that, i mean like no need pay for toll, ptptn, harga minyak, etc etc. My concern is if you free everything to the people, from where do you want to get money to administrate the country? Ok well, I know there's some place in the world that gives free education and bla bla bla. lazy to elaborate more. But if suddenly you want to implement such drastic changes, you are putting our country in a huge risk.

And yesterday, there's no blackout in Bentong. "经查证，文冬昨晚没有停电。本页关于的停电的贴文，将删除",  by 颜江瀚. Everyone believes whatever being shared and caused the blackout rumors spread hell wide. No evidence, everyone believes. And started the black profile pic, in my opinion should put white. Dunno, but i think white is more appropriate. And today, comes the yellow 3 stripes.

I agree with the doubts that happened. E.g the figures/statistics of seats won. That's why I went to spr website to look at the statistics. Your site FAIL bro. So complicated and mafan that I closed it cz fed up ady. But when you win, you dont say? If you noticed the votes, seats taken by Pakatan seriously have won through huge majority votes. And Pas was very bad and merely wins. DAP gained my respect btw, bcz of Lim G.E. Clap for you.

I wanna share one thing here.
With the caption, "大家敢敢share!!
這是證據！！

96年出世的一個老阿婆！！
我去查了！
竟然有得去投票！！
什麽道理！！
敢敢share出去！！！！！！！！！！" 

The truth is, she was born in 1986. Any problem? No, but being spreaddddddd as though as fraud IC.

The power of social media. https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=626201797409098&set=a.480290442000235.121893.440188876010392&type=1&relevant_count=1

I dont discuss this publicly with friends because I know everyone is at pakatan side. They will just say, Hey bodoh la you support bn. you still want them to rule ah? bl bla bla.. It's too obvious cz 100% my fb page are bn's negative news. Again, I'm party-free. I just want to voice out that DO NOT BELIEVE EVERYTHING on fb, some might be real as well. But think rationally, if bangla dont do those jobs that you dont want to do, who do? Do you want Bersih rally again? I dont. Demonstration is not Malaysian style. Writing and spamming on Obama's page is so immature I would say. The outside force will take opportunity to weaken us and we might never sounded again in any international conferences, but well, although Malaysia never been put in any country's eyes aso. And hey I dont think Obama have time for this. I even saw comments that, that stupid guy want us back to be colonized. Com'on I feel like giving 10 face palm to him with a table. Some people are blindly brainwashed by the social media. Have you seen any negative news of the opposition on fb? Because of party, some of good bn candidates lose, being washed off of what he had done for the past 5 years. People vote because of party, the hope that they said.

Re-election is the best method for me. But this time I guarantee bn will lose kaw kaw. A friendly reminder, please do not share false propaganda. Do not share blindly, click into it and read the comments. Analyse. Do not flame something that you are unsure of. Chinese tsunami I not dont  have time to update myself yet, so not commenting here.

Finally, let me end this in Malay language. Sungguh memalukan yang menjadi bahan ketawa di mata duna. Ini kalilah, kita popular sekali!

I'm writing this because I am a concern citizen. As Melvin said, stay united, stay focused. Steady lah. Again, I strongly against any demonstration. I still have things to said, but enough la. Nanti kena boikot pula. lol Just sharing guys. If mm ngam teng then delete this memory.

- I'm a Chinese and I'm racist towards typical Chinese. If you admit you are typical, yeah I'm saying you.

p.s: Here if you are concern, an article worth to share. https://www.facebook.com/notes/shern-ren-tee/in-darkest-night-a-blueprint-for-sunrise/142290832622751 Peace.

知道他们的东西，我很烦。

彼此在提对方，我在意。

看到他们在一起, 我没感觉。

讨厌自己那么犯贱。

I'm typical too, sometimes. 

On the chair.

Well, "Pikachu" leads me to post this. What he wrote inspires me to blog again. At such a time. Everyone was having their hard time. Nothing is easy as we know.

Something is wrong with me. I've never felt so lost, complicated, worried and disappointed as now before. I dont know what to say, just that I dont know what's going on with me. I'm afraid. Afraid that I cant even pass this semester. Studies are not hard, assignments are not hard, just that when everything is clogged together, worst things happen.

Two days ago, was my final design crit. The day before was the pin-up day. Really thankful and appreciate my classmates for always ready to help and back me up no matter how sucks am I. That day, yiteng helped me to think the space planning for my design and yeah I just draw it on my board instantly. What surprise me was he didn't said a second word after I requested him to think for me. I'm shocked, then he was just, "Yan!! Yan!!" The tone like, you can do better. I know I know. I was actlly just kidding that time. But he straight away get a paper and narrate for me. The yiteng last time would definitely not doing this for anyone. People change, problem is towards the positive or negative side.

As expected, the crit turned out to be horrible. Being the person behind Parsa, is even worse. I saw him presenting, I feel like digging a grave and jump into it. I was being shot and criticized. What hurt me was not what she said, but myself. I was really................down that time. I dont even bother to speak a word. I'm tired.

Finish about that, yesterday while chatting with him, I was pissed because whatever I did, he just want to relate me and xx. I dont know why am I pissed, I just not very happy bout it. Is it because I still have feelings towards him? I'm seriously bothered by this issue. Can someone help me to get rid of this?

p.s. Searching for remedy.

Impatient

When someone is obviously doing way better than you and say, "I'm worry bla bla bla". I think u wanna kena slap is it?

Can someone just tear me apart and see the inside of me.

I'm exhausted too sometimes.

p.s. Mentally not so fine. 我要睡觉，可以吗？

I dont wanna see anymore. Everytime I see posts like that, i'm scared, deep inside my heart.

Text again.

Well, someone found my hiding place here ady. Cant really post like everything ady. haha. but well, thanks for telling me though, so that i'll know what stupid stuffs that I cant share here. LOL
And 1 more thing, i wonder how frequent will you click on my url and visit here again. Hahahaha

Anyways, today's focus was about the movie & the dinner. Seriously I dont mind to watch Ah Boys to Men2 for another time. It's quite funny and nice though. And some part of the movie did make me feel so touched and at the same time, humorous as well. I want to download this and watch again! XDD

Then we had dinner. Gossip girls time again. haha. and yeah. red velvet cake @ Delicious taste just nice~! xD

I guess that's all. Lazy to think anymore. Ciaoz. 

It's raining and i'm crying. TT

Cry no tears

Suddenly I dunno what feeling I should have right now. I'm just sucks in everything. Each time I'm so disappointed with myself yet no improvement is taken. I guess no one could be worse than me.

So simple yet so complicated.

The same thing, feelings, thoughts kept repeating and repeating and i'm so sick of it already. Always tell myself to forget it and move on, but failed everytime. I please myself to walk out. Please.

Everyone is being tough for their own story. I have mine. Do not enter.

Lazy to talk to ppl like tht. Zzzzz Want to tell then tell, don't want to tell then DONT SAY! -.-

The smile kills me every single shot. OMG like seriously! I shall stop looking by now. LOL

The only reason to be grateful for the start of new semester is that I set myself in the busy mood and stop thinking about all these nonsense that will put me into emo-ness. Clear enough.

I dont want to hate you. Seriously! #$%^&*!

Chi ma gan

Part 2

Here comes the 2nd story. I knew this girl like during the lat few days of our work. Not really know though, just name and stuffs. I admit I have prejudice towards her after what she said the other day. == Wherever she's there, no matter in AD or BIZ, I won't be there to help out Carson or ah thong. Not that I dont like her, just that complicated feeling that I dont want see her. So bitchy right, I meant me. == yeah I know.

I know she is cute, polite(as what ah tong said), 18 years old. So what? == And this is the 2nd 926 that I mentioned in twitter before (if you followed me). Is it a karma or something? I was really speechless REALLY(!) when I found out this. Com'on, my lord do you need to fool me in such a way? Past and present. If you know what I meant. Please! I beg you, no more in my future please. Give me a 926 guy instead! But dont come a gay later. lol

Lai said I'm jealous. LOL i'm........not? arghh I dont know. I choose not to confess not because I afraid I got rejected. No big deal about it. It's because I dont want any relationship. I am selfish in that manner. I'm not that kind with play play type, I want a long relationship, probably towards marriage? Stay single, away from troubles. Well said. I'm happy to be single though. :)

Another thing, they said I'm too man. Well, I'm just doing things that nobody wanna do. I'm alone there, impossible if you want me to wait a real guy to help me carry boxes right? Speaking of this, I'm a bit(just abit) frust that day when the guy didn't even have the intention to help me carry those heavy boxes while all he did was waiting me to carry to him and he arranged the books. Com'on, are you a man?! I doubt that ==

#BBW, starting of my brotherhood. Thanks to yy for promoting. lol

It came to an end.

BBW is over once again 3 days ago. So many things happened in these 22days. Let's start with the 1st setup day. 6.30am work. To help setting up the tables, putting books on, arranged them bla bla bla. We did for children section. Hell damn lots of books, like seriously. You know, kid's books. Lol. The next 2 days were about the same thing.

Thursday 6/12, the preview day for the booksale. Launching and stuffs like that. 2000 people get to come in and do their shopping before the other thousands do. I'm in charged of the cookery section. I just dont understand why the management dont just separate the team according to section for the setup, cz I really had some hard time finding books for the customers for the first few days. sigh. So after the preview day, here comes the mission 63hours, where the booksale is running nonstop on Friday, Saturday and only closed on Sunday night. Crazy isn't it? For me, definitely. The crowd is HUGE! you have no time to replenish or arranging the books properly. Imagine thousands of ppl were there and the tables were seriously like pasar malam lelong cz everything is messed up terribly! I was so ..... speechless. And for the 3 days I'm in the midnight shift. 

I really dont understand those who came for books there. All educated human but behave like monkeys. Take everything but at the end just dumped whatever dont want EVERYWHERE! Pity us the crew who need to sort out the 'trash' according to the sections and spoilt thousand of books. ==
Flip books also can cause damages. How the hell on earth la they flip it? I really dont understand. And want to take a good condition book, dig deep deep but not putting the 'hole' back. COM'ON!! Actually all the books that everyone searching for is there if everyone behave nicely, not causing any mess. Seriously! Ended up some customers leave with disappointed. 

Working in the cookery section is indeed a fun thing actlly. Besides drooling seeing the yummy food pictures in the midnight, super heavy cookery books(hard cover), memory game placing back the books, 14 tables which is so far from the 1st table to the 14th, everything is just fine. Haha. Talking about my section, I actlly do have a leader and other 2 teammates. But.....haih. my leader is the one who kaki snake. 1st few days still a good leader(at least I can still see him around). But after 3days, I only saw him when clock in time and meal time. LOL Not complaining, he's a good guy though. :) The other 2 girls, always go to other section to find their friends. == Only me there so stupid working alone for 14tables, doing works that nobody want to do. Can find me 24/7 at cookery btw. But seriously, not to compliment myself, but I'm not the type that can simply let go something assigned without getting it done. That's my integrity I guess? :)

Thank god, I have my own 'army' who will constantly helped me out when they have nothing to do. Some said a lot of ppl came to cookery section just to 'touch' books cz the books here are already tidy in that manner. lol Somehow, really appreciate them to even just hang around so that I can leave that place for a second. While Architecture & Design(AD) section is just beside cookery which is a bonus. Haha. Always ran there with yy to catch up with Carson. Helped him arranging books, while the actual purpose is to sneakpeak some new titles for ourselves. HAHA

Overall, I bought 50 books in this booksale. My godness == The archi books is extremely CHEAP! Where on earth can you find such a deal if not in bbw?? Outside cost around Rm200+, I just bought with 25bucks. Like seriously. == And some other self help + business + Non fiction books. 30% of the books I bought are those unwanted books that those ppl threw at my section. I flipped over, found that it's interesting and bought them home. haha

It's another unforgettable working experience for me. Meeting lots of nice friends, doing something I never did before and just no regret signing up for this although it's damn bloody tired. It's finally over after start counting days since the 1st weeks. Time flies and life is still going despite doomsday never come. I'm glad that I lived my life! Peace. :)

p.s. Sorry for the boring text~ 

Or maybe I simply feel protected beside him? I dont know.

20.12.2012

Such a nice date although it's already 1am. Just in case tmr is really the doomsday, let's complete a last post here.

I seriously thought that the day is on 22/12 until someone mentioned it today during dinner break. LOL why you tell me??? adui.. Anyway, no regret ady la. At least a last dinner together. xD

Just saw the pic. Another 1. Hey girl! let go your hand. I din even take a solo pic with him b4. == but they all are not a threat to me. hahahah lol

p.s. What a surprise that suddenly got these 2 friends(different group) told me that I had my kind of good smell. I was like, ''what??'' == hahaha
p.p.s. I unexpectedly did something in Den's car. adui. malu shit. And I found tht he's quite cute also. so my type~~ hihi *evil smile* too bad ppl got gf ady.. haha

Fuck lo. Dont touch him! I'm watching you!!

The one.

You can remember the thing about the person you concern of even with only just a glance. :)

Keep it simple.

Let's stop all these weird thoughts and live my life. I just want everything to remain the same as how it is now. I'm fear of losing a friend, or perhaps you.

All-rounded.

I have such an indescribable feeling knewing that he is drawing again. Impressive. Maybe because I'm just fond of his skills that I dont think I will ever meet such a person in my life. I'm surrounded by future-dentist, economist, designers, doctors, definitely not an artist.

Or perhaps I'm just envy that I cant even draw a cat properly? I think he is right-handed. If you know what I meant. ;)

p.s. Another crappy post.

p.s.s I enjoy twitting recently. Because of him? her? them? Everyone! Good night. :)

What the hell am I thinking now? Damn it. You cant imagine how a small thing, really a small one ruined my mood now. omg. i feel so shit. If it's other person I might not feel hard bout it. But............ i dont know. really.

I guess the lecturer would be like, "THIS IS THE WORST BATCH EVER!!!!" screaming whole day long and I guess with their kepo level, the whole office already know about this. lol

Boom boom boom

The biggest problem is you dont even know what's the problem.

This just doesn't work. He is talented, hardworking, idealist, determined, humble, self-personality and cute I would say. And me, nothing. :/

Whenever I'm trying to make myself to be 'seen', there's always something pulling me backward. I think I really need to decide where should I belong.

At this moment. I'm disappointed of myself.

#Heartbeat increase.

Not so obvious.. Dont be the 1st to like. haha

I tried not to stalk so obvious. hhhahahaha *fat hao-ing

Ahhhhh I LOVE YOUUUUUUU bahahaahaha

I still have a place to hide. Here.

LUI LUI LUI $.$

SO POOR! SO BROKE! SO POKAIIIIIII!

Was having final crit for design on tuesday. Horrible. Only 5 made it on time to class that day. Whie the rest all late. ahhahahhaha. 9.30 class. but everyone came at 11 except the 5. Really speechless. As usual. did all the drawing the day before. Horrible! Drawings were ok, just not detail enough. I'm happy that I managed to draw the elevations correctly. yay!

And the printing for the board was like sucking my blood. Damn freaking expensive. Few piece of scanning and the 3 A1 printing cost me about RM36 ! Damn. Thank god i have Rm50 in the wallet. On the same morning, i took taxi to cheras. Faster. Wanna do some touch up and printing. It was RM 17.40 on the meter. Gave him rm50, but he dont have change. After digging my wallet for all the small change and syilling I had, there only rm16. So i just, "RM16 boleh ah?" LOL thank god he was like ok la ok la. hahahahah damn poor ady. After the printing, i lend to CBC rm 10. wallet left, rm3. After lunch at mamak, left 20sen. =.=

Poor till need to borrow money from Mr.Baktiar to go home. 

Yesterday stayed over at Val's place to complete the video. Everyone in the house was broke too. hahahaha. So we planned to go Leisure Mall at night to withdraw money. At last, when we were about to go out, rain poured. Heavily! So plan called off and ordered for pizza. When the pizza guy came, everyone was digging their wallet and I have only 10bucks from cbc. That time was like so funny because the money was just enough. haha

Today was done. Thought that can sleep until naturally wake up tmr. Who knows, tmr got tutorial wth lecturer. Haizh. Life. 2weeks more and i'm free! Sabar je la dulu. :/

Ciaoz.

p.s. Broad chest.

i'm so fucked up everytime i see this shyt. tmr is the day. god bless. -.-

Silent death.

Making a mistake is not the worst, if dont get lesson and learn over it, then that's totally hopeless.

5th Oct

Went to campus today purposely just to submit an assignment. Was late summore. hmm~
I just reached home @ 1.30pm just now after having breakfast with classmates at 11+ LOL

While on the way home, in the lrt, I was with SokMin when we came across a middle-aged man who was asking us on the direction to KL Sentral. He was very thankful that we answered him after a bad morning he went through. From his expressions it seems that everyone he asked doesn't know the way. LOL showed that how selfish the people are nowadays, in Malaysia. Well he's a Singaporean.

So we offered him to follow us since I'm going off at Masjid Jamek to change train also. On the way, he shared a lot on values of life.. etc stuffs like that. Though I'm not a very religious person, I do agree with what he said. He got robbed at Pudu this morning once he reached Malaysia and had a shit time in the police station with rude officers. Singapore embassy was closed due to construction and he was penniless.
So he was heading to KLSentral to wait for his brother to reach at 10pm tonight.

Before we split to different route, I offered him with RM20 for his meal today despite he will be waiting for his brother for the whole day long even I'm like so broke for spending a lot this week. I was thinking, If I'm in such a shitty situation, I would also hope that someone could help me. Even if you said maybe he's lying or pretending, well at least I'd done my part to help. He asked for my number, so we shall see. :)

While at M.Jamek, I met a long lost tuition friend. haha! I looked at him. He looked back. I looked again and laughed. He looked and smiled. The we went in to different door. I scared I see the wrong person so I wasn't say hi or what. We rarely talk last time, but today he talked more than I do. LOL

Thinking of what am I supposed to be doing now, is it worth my time? What do I want? What's my future?

Anyway, chill a minute. I wish I'm really there right now, overlooking the stone giant, making this typical pose. HAHA! Happy weekend my friend! T.G.I.F.!

P.s People come and go. I'm still waiting for the right one. Peace.

Confirmed. But I wasn't having any hard feelings. Life goes on. Peace. ><

True Friends.

I'll take 15mins for this.

My birthday was just over. 926 926 926. kept reminding other people through this combination of numbers. haha

Well, my 926 was Uni, drafting. perspective drawing, classmates, jokes, laugh, lecturers, visual diary, economy rice, McDonald and sundae. Birthday was rather ordinary on that day. Perhaps this year, I'm totally fine and comfortable this way. Keep the mind simple and busy did stop me from thinking nonsense and put myself in the bad mood. After all, if I could live another year, next year will be another 926. :)

My coursemates, come from different range of personalities. It's fun to have them around. Till now, I cant forget how you xiang(another yx) explained to Z on sarcasism. Really LMAO! hahahaha

Last Friday was the final crit. The day before I was too desperate on what to design and suddenly 'POP' this thing(my current design) out due to lack of time. And it was approved to proceed. The lecturer told us to leave the class for 30mins for them to evaluate. So we all went down to the cafeteria and 'blow water'(nothing else can do somehow). As usual, laughters were around. Everyone looked tired because of not sleeping for days yet the mind got wild to say nonsense stuffs,especially Val. haha. Well, it's normal.

Later on, when we were back to class, the lect. said everyone failed, except one. They didn't wanna mention is who, but I think is Julian due to the drawings. I dont know, just a guess.

I went for a short tutorial with Mr. Baktiar after that. (Was a longgg Q) He is a great man. Salute him so much. He gave me some suggestions on 'blending' my design. As usual again, my mind will complicate simple things and here am I now, still thinking and have not get my hands on, whereas others are already halfway. *F myself.

And Thanks Val and Ervin that day for accompanying me to wait for bus. For >30mins. lol Another funny and nonense conversation we had.

Around 5, got a text messages from EC, I was on the way back. Lol. Was like really last minute for a dinner at 7. hahaha. I didn't expect EVERYONE to make it. I really appreciate how we spent time together. We see everyone growing(mature-ing). 6 years and still counting. Thanks again! True friends are how we do not agree with each other sometimes, but after a minute, 'What's just happen?' Haha.

Frankly, the first wish was really a wish, The following, I really cant think of anything actually, so there we 2 empty wish actually. I believe more in fate. Thanks SoonYee, Ee Chien, Ru Jen, Pek Hua and Wei Jan again for making my 'birthday celebration' another memorable one. Peace ^^v

Holding up a parking lot for Ms. HoHoHo. (Super hard to get parking!)

Love you guyssssssssss! <3 p="p">

Birthday dinner with family, i guess it's a birthday dinner! haha. No cake. Nevermine, the cake that my girls bought still left half in my fridge. LOL. On Saturday night @ DELIcious. As usual(again) my mum who likes to take photo, my sis who likes to 'check-in', and my dad who always said, 'Eat also so mafan(refers to all the photo-taking and check-in stuffs) HAHAHA. I had a cute family I could say.

<3 p="p">

Mummy cooked last night. How rare! hahaha. She said, if wanna post on fb, must write good caption. -.- beh tahan. Another facebook addict in my house, making my line damn slow with 3users now. LOL 

The end.

Shit. I used 45mins for this. -.- I'm off to do design now. If not I will need to bang myself on the wall.

I'm a simple human being. How you treat me reflects how I treat you. Just that simple. Thank you everyone who draws my life for who am I today. I love every single person i've ever met including the annoying lecturers. haha. 

P.s. Sometimes when you are too pissed off of your life, you will not fear of death. Don't worry, i'm not that stupid enough to go suicide. It's just a thought that I have for previous weeks when I was drown with all nonsense problems. I'm now a happy man :D

P.s.s. A proper post(I meant like not just 1 or 2 sentences post) after............. 18months? haha

I'm now a 19. God . I feel old!!!!!!! next year i'm 20!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOO

I want forver 18! hahahahaa

Mind fuck fuck fucked up.

I'm not emo, I'm just........ not happy.
I'm sick of being tough. Because they know I can go through it.
I'm stressed for no one I can throw out to.
The loudest laugh is the deepest darkness you didn't see.

As I said, thank god I realised the thing I should since the beginning. And I'm done for this.
Tomorrow, I meant later will be a good day. Hopefully. Peace.

felt like screaming out loud. Why is this always happen on me?? I have feelings too. :'(
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh damn it

yer 生气生气生气！ ><

When a guy is treating you good, you wouldn't know whether is he also treating the others the same.

Pressure of getting 3.5.
I only want fun. :(

mm ngam channel. ;)

我很矛盾.真的不想跟他讲话.

Week 7

越来越觉得这群人很有趣。

天无绝人之路！

Mistake repeated. Fuck myself. End.
麻木到没有感觉了。
At the end I believe everything will has its solution.

p.s. Cheer up man. Nothing to sad also

A piece of shit I just produced.

Mind fucked up

New semester, old tricks.

Peer pressure from all aspects.
烦啊

为毛要让我认识他?

RAndom

" Happiness is still happiness regardless of the amount and long lastingness. "

-Quoted by a friend just now.

I would like to mark this because somehow he made me realise of something. Even that moment was short, happiness is still happiness. Wasn't feel that bad anymore now. Truly proven that time can make everything fades away. To be happy is to believe. I will remember that.

Smile EEEEEEEEEE :D

做好自己就好。
Too lazy to ask, to demand, to bother, to explain and whatsoever anymore.

The power of words

is undeniable....................

Him

He's really cute! Too bad he's owned. hmm~
Nevermine la, i will still 祝福 him. :)

p.s. I wanna date a MAN, not a boy. LOLS

I have a god damn feeling!

I truly believe in fate.
So there's nothing to be sad of.
Yet i feel so complicated now.
WHAT THE FUCK! *sorry i'm just stressed out.

The person who can't cry is the weakest one. Yes I am.

p.s One night with two bad news. I'm not as tough as I think though. F!

Dont know what to say. Just remain silent will be good enough.

-.- V

Doesn't want to talk bout this on my blog actlly. But I really......!
My whole fb news feed is FULL with the Bersih thingy since yesterday night. That's fine, nothing wrong bout it.
What I'm really sad of as a Malaysia citizen is that we dont see such things happen in our country back then.
When I was still in secondary school, I remember I was taught in class that 'Malaysia ialah negara yang mempunyai kestabilan politik berbanding negara-negara lain'.
I dont know since when street demonstation becomes the trend for us to release the political thinking in our country.

As for today's rally, the authorities did mention that it's a peace rally. PEACE rally. If your people just sit there to demonstrate, then should be no problem la. The policemen will definitely also not take any action on the people. It's kinda impossible for everyone to control their emotions especially when it comes to the climax. They will start to buat kacau, fight, throw this and that and whatsoever. This time, kids also know that definitely the police will do something right? Takkan la want to let them throw dunno-what to them doing nothing.
When the situation is not under control, the policemen use their teargas-whatsoever, the people complain. Blame them, make HUGE reports in facebook, is it really their fault at first place?

The police are just somehow doing their duties. If you don't touch them, they wont touch you. I think they are more afraid than the demonstrators, cz they are only 1k vs 150k, and even if they only 'touch' the people, will definitely kena attack kau-kau in social medias.

Still, I need to pay my respect to those polite demonstrators who showed the spirit of protesting not through physically but from their gentleness. This is what a PEACE rally should be. If you want to play the game, make sure everyone from both side follow the rules.

I'm not a BN supporter nor Pakatan supporter. I'm just a concern citizen_END

Why so hard?

Though everything SEEMS normal, but I can feel that it's not the same anymore.

So should I continue to act as there's nothing happen?

That few days were really tough for me. Those who really know me knows that I am a very straight forward person. To hide my feelings and expressions is really REALLY challenged my patience. Not to say or show that I'm a very honest/sincere person. But in such matters, YES I am.

Everyone thought that I'm emo because of assignments. Part of it, yes, but it's actually about this.

Till today, I'm still thinking bout this, trying to comfort myself that I'm right. Definitely, bcz it's really not my fault.

p.s. I just dont like to hurt anyone, that's why I'm always the one feels bad for everything. Enough. I'm done.

p.p.s. I received a better offer job than the Maxis one, but I rejected it. Got mumbled like hell from mom. And I said, "BECAUSE I HAVE CREDIBILITY". And my dad just laughed. lol. Is it really that funny? Because that's me.

Sometimes being the real you is just as hard as to get 100% in exam_END

**Thanks for reading :)

I dont want to retake this!! NEVER!

It's not bad

.......it's just really really bad. I do believe in fate.

And I'm getting more and more disappointed to myself.

My flaming spirit has gone.

Expected. HAHAHAHAHAHAH

GAWD!

I'd been sitting on this chair for 11.5hours !! From 8am till now. 11.5 HOURS!!! fml!

TAN YANXIAN!!

DO YOUR ENGLISH!! DESIGN IS TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!!

wtf

Well well well

I'm suppose to do my journal now since the submission is tomorrow. Was given the assignment from the 2nd week of the class, but my papers are still empty now. hmm, hard to change my last minute attitude. SOmehow i'll still produce something to be handed in tmr. :)

Last week was crazy, Sunday to Thursday, I slept not more than 10hours. I guess besides hanging on, it's still hanging on. I always tell myself that someday the hard days will definitely leave me. Therefore, I'M STILL HANGING ON!

The next design project is a bit different from previous semester. Wasted few hours arguing some matters to solve the problems. Stayed in campus to build the site last saturday until 2am, and overnight there. Though it was late, but everyone still fooling around all the time. haha

Today's class, we drew orthographic drawings. Then during English, half of the class cabut balik because NONE of us did the work that we should show to our lecturer! hahaha. Then we persuaded the lecturer to postpone the lecture and dismiss the class. ;D

That's all for now I guess. Long time didn't update here, I AM LOSING READERS! but who cares??! hahahahahahhahahaahhahahhaahhahahhah

Life is hard MAN!

[I cried last night in the middle of sleeping. wtf? Maybe I'm just too stressed out~]

"without you

i feel missing something"

I hope what you said is true. :)

Sweating already!

My design doesn't even convince me. How can i make others to buy my idea then? F

Pressure is so not my type!

The first week of college is over. Yeah OVER! hell fast man.

Basically it's just the introduction for each subjects. The real business will start next week.

omgimabitscaredhonestly

Today is Saturday. Didn't want to wake up actlly jz now. Seriously too tired after squash, jogging, going here and there to buy tools and wake up so early everyday.

5th, 6th and 7th consequently are my friends bday.

Eunice, Allen, AiDee & Fred

I'm so sorry anyway, didn't really wish them properly.

I did remember, but after the long day, I forgot and just wished them through fb sms msn & wtever.

I here wish you guys all the best. We still have 299days for 2012, let's make everyday counts!

#Oh ya, my 2012 resolution: A peaceful life. I'm currently too weak for any challenges.

2012's first post. 11.39pm

I edited half way. Just couldn't finish the entire post.

So I start with a new one. ==

2011 was a huge transformation for me.

Sad things was uncountable, but always balanced along with lots of sweet memories.

#The thing that I regret the most in 2011 is .......................... I'm still single!

nahh just joking, not that desperate yet. is..... I DIDN'T BUY THE CONVERSE BACKPACK THAT I SAW DURING THE VISIT TO BEIJING! omg!! it's been like 6months and I still damn sad till now. haizh!

Whatever it is, Happy New Year !

For me, it's a tough year ahead.

I'll just wait and see what my 2012 happens to be.

_Live is hard!

Seeing perfection through imperfection. *Bullshit! At the end, still imperfect.

F

Fed up ! I hate what am I doing now !

Evil

When you don't listen to my advice, there's no point arguing over it.

I'll just let you die. God bless your suffer now.

p.s. Mind your attitute!

Farker !

I really damn hate ppl who commented on the post, then deleted it. As like i'm talking to myself. Then why do you commented at first?! GTH idiot!*&^%$#@*%#!!!!!!!

NOOOOOOOO

Shit. I was shivering everytime I receive his msg. damn!

arggghhhh 生气啊！;(

忍忍忍忍忍忍忍 ！

I hope he knows I like him. :)

Friday?

Well, I'm supposedly being in UCSI today for my SWA duty~ But I'm just so lazy and ponteng a day~~ lalalalalala

I wasted N hours and N days doing.............nothing? God damn i still have 4slides to do! noooooo~~~ n i'm hungry now ! @@

Oh ya! n HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO TAN YANLIN! xD

ciaoz_I hope the great moments last. :)

Pissed.

I really wanna do sumthg big this time. God bless me! :)

"Special"

Let me write some words before starting to do my lab activity(lazy to do in tutorial class tmr~~ haha).

Yesterday was the midtern test for OA, and my result was........................ HAHAHAHA

Same goes to my undang test, the result was.....................HAHAHAHAHHA

Attitude is an element that build up who the is. No one can change for anyone just because the 'anyone' might like it. There's something which is bothering me these few days, but well the story is just TOO long.. (LOL)In short, everyone is special. Anyway, it is a random feeling.

I feel so 10cent standing beside this 20cent :(

WHERE IS MY SELF CONFIDENCE??!

This pic(got it from fb) is soo true! Do you think we are blind? Just SHUT UP will really do.

-thanks for your 3mins. Peace.

I still think that my blog skin is UGLY! =[

I'm back. After weeks, months of neglecting my blog. - A space to share, to complain, to release when there's actually no idiot that would want to hear this, to be emo(sometimes) and most important, to be myself.

Sem break had past a month ago and sem2 had started weeks ago.

More or less the same thing I'd been doing everyday.

Still the forgetful, careless, lazy and the annoying one.. DrivingLicense has still yet to be taken~ No rush anyway. :)

My 18th birthday. Nothing so special about it. I dont even wanna celebrate it even my dad insist to buy a cake.

I dont want to be mean to anyone. 'It's okay' is just the words to represent how disappointed I am. It's not about the celebration or the wishes, it's the attitude that matters. I really appreciate SY who is eventually tried to make this up. :)

Seriously I dont like to see wishes with 'Enjoy your day'. In another words, i hate it! Because I dont, even i know that they are with good intention. I did not make any wishes because I think it is bullshit. Hoping for something is the biggest mindset torture ever.

I dont want to mention of it anymore, it's my 2011 history. If I am to be sad of this, I am way TOO stupid and I rather put the energy on other stuffs. I appreciate whatever that makes me who I am now.

Anyway, I had a nice dinner with my family @ Ben's. I would definately want to go there again~

28/09 - I simply left my thgs in the computer lab. Walked halfway, "SH*T!" - realised and ran back to get them back. All my cables, pencil case, thumbdrive, 'siew pao' etc were in that paper bag. That's how forgetful I am. So I left the others, took it back, met Ervin and I ke-po with him a while. Suddenly KJ appeared and scolded me. For I didn't get back to them after I found my thgs and they were worried that other person might have took it. So they went all the way up to 4th floor while I was busy chatting with Ervin. EeVon told me how worry KJ was that time like in those dramas and I'm so sorry for that. If not that you are my big brother and have a gf, I might have fall for you. :)

A 21-year-old guy with a 18-year-old BOY definately have the difference. That's why we never make up in a conversation. Even a simple chat would ended up in a big failure. For time being, I am proud to say that - single life is better. :)

Yesterday after flipping over some books in the uni library and talking with Eirena, I went to the NationalLibrary. I am so lucky that I found both reference that I need. =)

I waited for a bus to klcc from a bright evening at first, till the night rises. Met an Uruguay leng lui who's also studying architecture when buying my dinner. :) Nothing much, and went home.

-To show that you are happy when u are actually not, That's the hardest part.

Human race

Is there still any point to update me blog?

I lost the passion.

Things had changed too much.

The people who cares doesn't care anymore,

The arrangement had run off,

The heart has fled and I lost my sight.

A short one.

Hi everyone there. I'd not updated this for such a LONG LONG time. Anyway, reading back my friends' blog did bring back my intention to blog again this moment.

LIFE. How do you describe it?

Mine these few weeks after started my course, was like HELL! Non stop assignments, modelling, journals, sketches, this submission, that submission. Staying up till late night everyday just to finish my work. The week after the Malacca Site Visit trip lagi like hell. Fantastic enough rite~~

Stress is something everyone can't avoid. Btw, regarding my mid term which past recently, it's quite disappointing. I didn't put my 100% effort on it. I did read, but it's just read, not memorize. Nothing came out during the test. GREAT JOB YANXIAN! :\

Assignments are stressful. But going to class is fun! Facing a bunch of jokers really live up my life. Last Thursday, staying in campus till 7pm to do the undone rendering. I really ROFL that day due to Ervin's joke. hahaha. And last Monday, Sky was showing off his 'elasticity'. He is proud of it btw. lol

Despite the busyness of rushing for assignments stuffs, I sill manage to keep myself update on the movies showing in the big screen. Movie is something I'll never miss. xD

Watched Transformers3 with WJ n Raji last Saturday. Almost felt asleep cz too tired. lol. Meet up with the girls due to Raji's leaving to AIMST. All the best! <3

Everyone started with their own course. Suprisingly, none of us are in the same college/campus. lol. It's hard to meet again next time~~

Our(SY WJ PH RJ EC) is .... ? I have no idea. I'm okay on Friday night / weekends. hmm~~

Watched Treasure Inn yesterday. By Cheung Ka Fai , Ah Sa, Nicholas Tse etc..... OMG Nicholas Tse still very handsome.. haha.. This movie is damn funny. I too slept only few hours on the day before, but I dont feel sleepy watching this. I was laughing during the playing of the whole movie. Seriously funny. If you are very stessed out, I fully recommended this movie. HAHAHA

OK, continue my rendering aka kindergaten colouring now. I still remember what Sivan once said. And it's true.

Me : ASSIGNMENTS = HOMEWORK

Sivan : Yeah, that's something u never do during secondary school!

True! RJ & SY's exercise books are so beautiful to copy last time~ haha

--ENDPOST_hell time begins.

Last week. After china trip.................

Was a DISASTER WEEK for me. Need to catch up all the one whole week's assignments that I missed. Having sleepless night EVERYDAY.

Sunday & Monday doing paku-paku for Tuesday.

Tuesday doing History boards for Wednesday.

Wednesday drew 5 sheets of shapes for Thursday.

And lastly, Thursday drawing 5schemes of designs for Friday submission.

Crazy isn't it? then till Saturday = collapsed. Damn bloody tired the whole week.

Sunday - 29/5/11

Dinner @ a korean restaurant in Solaris.

*ignore the salad* haha

Sunday & Monday hard work. End product. :

Was really funny that I dont have enough nails on the monday nidnight, where the submission is on Tuesday. Really.......................speechless! Luckily my saviour, KJ brought me a whole big bag of nails the next morning. =D

Wednesday, doing history the whole night before. Finally cannot finish aso. Just finish 1, while the another only haf. haizh. But my lecturer is very nice. She told me to pass up the following week and do some touch up on it. ^^ Appreciate.

Thursday, drew the basic forms the whole nighht again. Ended up knowing that I did everything wrongly. I was damn bloody frustrated for the first 10mins. But when I turned back to Pei's table, HAHHAHAHA she's funny. LOL

Friday, my first SWA duty. Bored. Followed by a meeting after that, end at 6pm.

Can you spot what's wrong with this monitor. I didn't take the pic upside down, but the screen of the monitor really does. haha

Then headed to Delicious for PekHua's delayed delayed & delayed birthday celebration. Sorry PekHua! n HAPPY BIRTHDAY. <3

Again, the noisiest customers. HAHA.

WeiJan : Yanxian, lower you volume. I can hear your echo.

Yanxian : ==

I had a great day as everyone did. ^^ I think we should hang out at least one month once. So that we could keep updated. Right SoonYee???????? hehehe

the waiter really tak tau take picture. ==

Saturday - 4th June

It's Agung Birthday. And Ervin cancelled the 'clubbing thgy' bcz of this.. hahahah.. Just joking~

It's also MY DAD"S BIRTHDAY! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

We had a great dinner at The Duck King. Guess what we ate, Peking Roast Duck! haha.. Just to compare the taste with the originally Peking Duck back in Beijing. xD

Sunday, stayed at home doing nonstop assignments.

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