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Doesn't want to talk bout this on my blog actlly. But I really......!
My whole fb news feed is FULL with the Bersih thingy since yesterday night. That's fine, nothing wrong bout it.
What I'm really sad of as a Malaysia citizen is that we dont see such things happen in our country back then.
When I was still in secondary school, I remember I was taught in class that 'Malaysia ialah negara yang mempunyai kestabilan politik berbanding negara-negara lain'.
I dont know since when street demonstation becomes the trend for us to release the political thinking in our country.

As for today's rally, the authorities did mention that it's a peace rally. PEACE rally. If your people just sit there to demonstrate, then should be no problem la. The policemen will definitely also not take any action on the people. It's kinda impossible for everyone to control their emotions especially when it comes to the climax. They will start to buat kacau, fight, throw this and that and whatsoever. This time, kids also know that definitely the police will do something right? Takkan la want to let them throw dunno-what to them doing nothing.
When the situation is not under control, the policemen use their teargas-whatsoever, the people complain. Blame them, make HUGE reports in facebook, is it really their fault at first place?

The police are just somehow doing their duties. If you don't touch them, they wont touch you. I think they are more afraid than the demonstrators, cz they are only 1k vs 150k, and even if they only 'touch' the people, will definitely kena attack kau-kau in social medias.

Still, I need to pay my respect to those polite demonstrators who showed the spirit of protesting not through physically but from their gentleness. This is what a PEACE rally should be. If you want to play the game, make sure everyone from both side follow the rules.

I'm not a BN supporter nor Pakatan supporter. I'm just a concern citizen_END

Why so hard?

Though everything SEEMS normal, but I can feel that it's not the same anymore.

So should I continue to act as there's nothing happen?

That few days were really tough for me. Those who really know me knows that I am a very straight forward person. To hide my feelings and expressions is really REALLY challenged my patience. Not to say or show that I'm a very honest/sincere person. But in such matters, YES I am.

Everyone thought that I'm emo because of assignments. Part of it, yes, but it's actually about this.

Till today, I'm still thinking bout this, trying to comfort myself that I'm right. Definitely, bcz it's really not my fault.

p.s. I just dont like to hurt anyone, that's why I'm always the one feels bad for everything. Enough. I'm done.

p.p.s. I received a better offer job than the Maxis one, but I rejected it. Got mumbled like hell from mom. And I said, "BECAUSE I HAVE CREDIBILITY". And my dad just laughed. lol. Is it really that funny? Because that's me.

Sometimes being the real you is just as hard as to get 100% in exam_END

**Thanks for reading :)

I dont want to retake this!! NEVER!

It's not bad

.......it's just really really bad. I do believe in fate.

And I'm getting more and more disappointed to myself.

My flaming spirit has gone.

Expected. HAHAHAHAHAHAH